March was the month of giving what you need to get. j said it better than I could express at the moment: “I believe in karma. I believe that, more often than not, we get back what we put out into the world, so why not put out what you’re hoping to receive… Love. Permission. Attention. Forgiveness. Fun. Massages. Cheesecake… Even if you don’t get back exactly what you give, I bet you’ll get back what you need. Love begets love.” That was her theory.
So I embarked on the journey and quickly found out that it was slightly harder than I thought. And not because I wasn’t willing to give in general and to give what I needed.
Giving love, friendship, time (as much as that could be given away), a smile, a heart, a hug, an ear and a shoulder, returning a kiss, a look, a touch, reaching out, replying to an email, playing their favorite song to cheer someone up, fulfilling silly requests just because they’d make someone happy – these were all easy.
Getting what I needed… now that was the slightly tough part.
I found this month harder than the ones preceding it because not expecting anything in return while giving what you need is tricky to say the least.
What have I learned from this experience?
A valuable lesson: when we shift on the expectations management button and are patient enough – we do get back what we need even if not in the exact form or from who we would’ve thought.
“Where your heart breaks and where it mends are rarely the same place, and that’s okay.” ~ Judy Clement Wall