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2016, January 6

No Auditioning & Drawing a self-portrait

The assignments for the last two weeks in the year of loving ourselves fearlessly were to not audition for love, and to draw a self-portrait (or seven).

I have a natural tendency toward putting myself last and people-pleasing, so during the week of no auditioning it was quite hard to actually follow up on the assignment. It would’ve been so much easier to just go where I was told, do what was expected of me no questions asked and caring for everyone around me first before “getting” to myself.

Truth is, I know I have the choice of saying “No” to things, that I should act on my own priorities and values.
So I aksed myself “what are the most important things to me?” question and took it from there. I stalled when I could, and said I needed to think about things/favors when that was the case. I thought about how stressful it would be for me to undertake said favor, how much pressure I would feel. I considered if it was worth it, and if I actually had the time to do it or what I would need to give up in order to free time for that specific thing.
I also tried something new to me and gave myself a kind of time limit, like “I’m only free for this during 9 am to 11 am.” for example, I said “No” with conviction, and also did my best to not give excuses – which is always a temptation for me as I want people to understand my reasoning (but it usually backfires because it gives people wiggle room to try and help me find time, resources, etc. for what they ask of me).
I’m convinced I’m a good path, and will do my best to continue doing these things instead of auditioning for love.

As for the self-portrait? Well, I drew it this morning since I took last week off from my blog without any notice – we went on a short trip with the BF and I wanted to focus on just the two of us and sight-seeing.

draw a self-portrait

How was your holiday season? Did you manage not auditioning for love? How tough was it? Are you a natural people-pleaser, too? Did you draw a self-portrait? I’d love to see it, if so!

PS: If you’re interested in giving this a go in 2016, you can buy the 52-52 guide in the shop.

2015, February 23

Heart Mapping

First off, I’d like to thank everyone for their comments on last week’s love letter to myself. And also thanks to all the people who commented and liked my Facebook status a couple of days after the blog post went up, after I found out about getting the technical writer job! It means so much to me to see that much support, I really do love you guys for being so sweet! *huge hugs to each and every one of you*
I start next Monday, and can’t wait to see how it all goes!

Last week’s assignment in the year of following the 52/52 e-guide in 2015, was heart mapping. The idea was of mapping something, whatever grounds us in our life and also lights us up inside.

I actually wanted to give this a try a few years ago, but it didn’t go too well. And by that I mean that I ended up procrastinating so much about it, that I ended up not doing it.
This past week, I Googled heart mapping, and was amazed at the results. There are so many beautiful heart maps out there!
I kept wanting to print out a human heart. An actual human heart shape, because I’m not that good when it comes to drawing. I wanted to have the outline, and draw in the veins myself, write all that I wanted onto the heart, then add depth and show things in a kind of “order” by coloring my heart map in, somewhat like a topographic map. This was the plan, anyways.

Instead, I ended up simplifying it to the bare minimum after forgetting to print myself that human heart outline.
So, I drew a highly imperfect heart, and just started writing things into it. I first wrote, then drew a little line to separate everything, so it doesn’t reflect any kind of order or importance, all is as small or large a part of the heart as I wrote them out. When I ran out of space, I made the heart bigger by adding a sort of edge to it and filling that in as well. Also, I left a little space empty, just because there are sooo many things I have yet to discover, and I am positive my heart will be filled with more things as the days, weeks and years go by.

heart mapping

I drew it into my travelogue, because I think having my heart map in there will be a nice way for me to think of all these things when I travel. I tore out the first heart I drew. It took a couple of hours to finish, to be truly happy with what I’ve drawn and written. Some letters are smudged a little bit, showing when/where Pixel jumped after my pen. Several things are written upside down, cause I kept turning it every which way while writing.
And truth be told, I still want to turn it into a heart map with a human heart outline, like I mentioned above.

But I still really love the way it turned out! And it was such a fun exercise!

heart mapping 2

The assignment for week 8, is to Find Your Life Theme. Inspired by Alex Franzen who wrote a post that began, “I believe every life has a theme.”, ended with “Here’s to thematic revelation,” and in between, it asked questions designed to help one identify the overarching theme of their own life, Judy urges us to give it a try.
I think this will be an interesting exercise for me! Hope you join in, too.

Have you done any heart mapping? Either this week, or any time before? I’d love to see it if you have it published on your blog, or took a picture of it! :)

PS: If you’re interested in joining us, you don’t have to have the e-guide to play, but if you’d like it, you can buy it in the shop.

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